Looks Like an Identity Crisis

I was playing with my camera and as I looked at this picture I thought to myself, perhaps this is what an identity crisis looks like.

I've sort of been trying to figure out what it is that I like to do.  I've been thinking to myself, you'll never figure out what you like, if you just stay at home and watch movies.  While I should do something else sometimes, perhaps that is exactly what I want to do.

I love a good movie.  Although they can be hard to find, when you watch a movie that just hits the spot, it's magical.

I've actually been really stressed and upset lately.  There's a lot going on in my life and I feel uncomfortable talking about my negative emotions, because I feel like people are judging me.  I imagine them thinking, "get over it Lisa, your problems aren't that bad, why do you always have to be such a negative Nancy,"or something to that effect.

Sometimes I just have days where I feel alone and fat and unwanted and dumb and overwhelmed. I'm not sure it it's irrational, but there are days where it aches so badly I feel like my heart will burn a hole right through my chest.

On those days I want someone to hug me.  I don't want anyone to touch me though who hasn't proved I can feel safe around them.

It's not all the time, but there are days where it's just like "what about me?"

Knowing that is part of understanding yourself though.